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08:49pm 16/07/2006
  there are alot of people here i don't really want to read my inner thoughts (no offense) so i've moved to another journal. The new one will probably go into deeper detail about stuff, purely for my benefit...much like my earlier posts on this one.

If you really want to know the new name, or don't know me personally but still want to read about me, contact me and maybe i'll give it to ya ;)
 
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LOL   
10:57pm 05/06/2006
  dibmonkey: are you older than me?
Frank2Did5It: what's your birthday?
dibmonkey: september 20th 1988
Frank2Did5It: then, yes
Frank2Did5It: by 4 months and 25 days
Frank2Did5It: If my math is correct
Frank2Did5It: and it rarely is
dibmonkey: january....?
Frank2Did5It: what's nine minus five?
dibmonkey: oh, wait.
dibmonkey: 4
Frank2Did5It: what's the fourth month?
dibmonkey: april
Frank2Did5It: yes
dibmonkey: i was adding instead of subtracting
Frank2Did5It: the end of april, to be exact. the 25th. I guessed as much
dibmonkey: so you are older than me. though nobody could tell.
Frank2Did5It: no
Frank2Did5It: not really
Frank2Did5It: not the way we are around each other
dibmonkey: crazies
Frank2Did5It: Yeah, that's us
 
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Balmy:   
11:56pm 14/05/2006
 
mood: baaaaaalllmyy
1.Having the quality or fragrance of balm; soothing.
2.Mild and pleasant: a balmy breeze.
3.Slang. Eccentric in behavior.

Tonight was balmy.
 
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circle...square...buttox.   
09:13pm 08/04/2006
 
mood: drained
okay, so, after staying up all night at sams par-tay, i then went to a four hour first aid class. Well, i got through it, with a joke about x-ray vision as well!

tomorrow at 12, im leaving on the train for san luis obispo (i get there at 8:30pm) where my dad lives now. (no more cool house)
so ill be gone for a few days....no internet. will she survive?

yeesh...i dont know when im ganna have any free time for...anything untill at least the play ends.

heh. spiky.


...sleep deprevation.
 
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08:12pm 26/03/2006
 
mood: chipper
ahhhhhh. well, this is nice.

the concert was fun (except for the soda.)

favorite graffiti ever: "Bubonic Plague" with a heart drawn 'round it.
 
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it pales in comparison   
10:34pm 21/03/2006
 
mood: good
To awnser your question...yes, im doing good. Still, I sometimes feel like i'm tunneling into a steel wall, but i'm progressing, for now. How very very near to an end of this i am! No more highschool in just a few short months. But so much to plan...and so much money that I don't have.

I need to get a car. And a license. Oh, the humanity.

I still have this great weight in my chest, but maybe with summer and industrial solvent it will go away. Maybe I will forget it was there in the first place. Maybe I will replace it.

Im taking a date to a concert. With my mother.

Oh, the humanity.

Oh, the fucking humanity.
 
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do be dobedo.   
07:07am 21/03/2006
 
mood: gettin' ready.
so! there's alot going on. good stuff.

i had a dream that (name here) was a kinda milly-wonka style madman that had control over plants, and we drove in this old fancy car to the end of the property, because he had to go somewhere. Then i had to run back though trees that were attacking me,preventing me from getting back to the house, save (2nd name here) and bring a piece of meat to (3rd name here).

the funny thing is, i know pretty much what it means.
 
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I had the strangest day today.   
09:30pm 26/02/2006
 
mood: contemplative
This morning, I woke up after an odd dream i cant remember now, and i felt a bit sick.
I slept in till a little while before twelve, then work on my research project on Robert Service, a poet.

I actually like doing this project...he's an interesting guy. a peoples poet.

Then me and mom decided to go see a movie, and i didn't want to see any they had at Parkway, so we went to the Grossmont Trolley Theatre and saw Capote. It turns out that tonight was the very last night the theatre is running any sort of movie...and that they're moving to the grossmont center or something like that.

It's just so odd to me that such a random decision of mine could place me at that theatre on closing night.

It was a good movie.
 
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Fiona!   
11:52pm 19/02/2006
 
mood: yay.
I just got a beautifull new kitten yesterday at the PetCo adoption thingie...
She's a bright white shorthaired cat with one gold eye and one blue eye.

about 7 months old.

...and currently hiding someplace in my room.
 
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just wondering...   
12:49pm 08/01/2006
 
mood: amused
Can anybody tell me where the phrase "nice shoes, wanna fuck?" came from? i mean, it's funny, but why is it such a big thing?
 
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Holy shit   
01:00am 06/01/2006
 
mood: worried
I think i just did something really stupid.
 
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Resolutions   
10:56pm 01/01/2006
 
mood: weird
1. Graduate Highschool
2. Get into Juilliard
3. Do artwork, take pictures
4. Keep a penpal
5. Win an award
 
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RENT   
06:54pm 19/12/2005
  So, I went and saw rent today with the drama people. Really though, I was glad it was such a small group...I hate how i'm treated by people in the club. Surface laughs. Minute alliances. Bullshit.

The movie was allright but it reminded me of my wonderful uncle, who has aids, and his dying lover.

As the sun was setting a bird flew across the sky and the bus people sang broken christmas carols.

The world is so bittersweet.
 
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eastern time?!   
12:26am 02/12/2005
 
mood: excited
Thanks Tony for commenting on the essay, i turned it in today. But yeesh, i hadn't even thought that they were on eastern time. If i had turned it in an hour later it would have been late! Now i've only gotta get the audition nailed. about 1 in 50 gets in...blah, but hey, that could just be me!

Got my hair done today, so now it's short and red instead of short and "is it brown or red?"
 
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PLEASE LOOK AT THIS   
12:15am 01/12/2005
 
mood: me go sleep now...
my essay for Juilliard, due today. Any comments welcome.

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I want to act to be more than I am, and to offer more than I could normally give. Acting is a different world. You can fight with somebody then go out on stage and be in love with them, and if acting can do that much for the actors, it does even more for the audiences that watch them. By watching a play or a movie, people can escape from even the most horrible of lives. Even if the real world disappoints, there are other worlds ready to be jumped into. It is comforting to have lines and scripts where even if it ends badly there's a moral.

Acting is my rush, my passion, and my goal. The first play I was in, besides one in kindergarten, was in fifth grade. It was a crazy play called Yakety Yak that some mom from the neighborhood wrote and was performed in a local senior center (aptly named The Last Resort.) Including Yakety Yak, I have been in seven plays and counting, two variety nights, and a theatre competition. As Vice President of the El Cajon Valley Players, I spend in an excess of four hundred hours a year at school doing club related things, and have loved every single minute of it. I can’t imagine doing anything else, except maybe being a greenhouse attendant in Antarctica, but that wouldn’t be half as interesting and challenging as acting is for me.

I want to be an actress because it is an art form I can work with, can make more real than any other art. I can draw, I can write, but not with as much interest, ingenuity and heart as I can with acting. I love acting because, with it, I do not merely create art. I am art in action.

What better place to realize my dreams than at Juilliard, the holy grail of performance art schools? I have spent a lot of time and effort working towards this dream, but I am willing and eager to devote even more. I want to make myself better, not only in my acting ability, but as a person. With the instruction I would receive, the people I would meet, and the pure atmosphere at Juilliard, I would certainly grow more than I can even imagine.
 
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stolen from katie   
12:05am 24/11/2005
 
mood: tired
I AM: Jessica Arielle
I WANT: new bras
I HAVE: time on my hands
I WISH: things were different
I HATE: being helpless
I FEAR: failure
I HEAR: what they say
I SEARCH: for new possibilities
I WONDER: what dreams really are
I REGRET: being shy
I LOVE: what i shouldn't
I ACHE: when i remember aching
I ALWAYS: like hot baths
I AM NOT: subtle
I DANCE: on my stairs
I SING: walking home
I CRY: when i don't understand the world
I AM NOT ALWAYS: right
I WRITE: beautifuly
I WIN: hearts
I LOSE: myself
I CONFUSE: john cusak and kevin spacey
I NEED: you
I SHOULD: get some sleep

YES or NO:
x. YOU KEEP A DIARY: irregulary
x. YOU LIKE TO COOK: baked things
x.YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: yes
x.YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: yes

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: yup
WANT TO GET MARRIED: yeah
GET MOTION SICKNESS: cars, boats, everywhere
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: not really
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: usually
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: yes.

CURRENT
HAIR COLOR: reddish
EYE COLOR: green
BIRTHPLACE: wait...current birthplace? is it ganna change? poway.

FAVORITE
NUMBER: 32
COLOR: green
DAY: wednesday
MONTH: october
SONG: ...
FOOD: ...
SEASON: fall
SPORT: soccer
DRINK: root beer

PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: it depends
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: neither
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: don't like chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: vanilla
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IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? yes
HELPED SOMEONE? i hope so
BOUGHT SOMETHING? soda
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? went to the mall, not the movies
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? got sushi-like stuff at the mall
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? to my mom
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? yes
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? this one
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? no
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no
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Name 7 things you hate:
1.mean people
2.gum on the ground
3.air pollution
4.Wal-Mart
5.math
6.being confused
7.plastic surgery

Would you ever:
1. Eat a bug?a clean one
2. Bungee jump? yes
3. Hang glide? yes
4. Kill someone? who?
5. Kiss someone of the same sex?yes
6. Have sex with someone of the same sex? no
7. Parachute from a plane? maybe
8. Walk on hot coals? why?
9. Go out with someone for their looks? no
10. For their reputation? what kind of reputationg?
11. Be a vegetarian? yes
12. Wear plaid with stripes? hell yeah
13. IM a stranger? yup
14. Sing Karaoke? maybe
15. Get drunk off your ass? maybe when i'm legal
16. Shoplift? hell no
17. Run a red light? huh? does that mean a whore house?
18. Star in a porn video? no
19. Dye your hair blue? i have before
20. Be on Survivor? sure
21. Wear makeup in public? everyday
22. Not wear makeup in public? yeah
23. Cheat on a test? no
24. Make someone cry? i wouldn't want to
25. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? more than? no. 10-maybe. he'd hafta be a really awesome guy.
26. Stay up all night? sure.
 
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Boink   
10:55pm 10/11/2005
 
mood: amused
some days are bad, some are good...today was good.

Fun day at school, then went to see "Fools," a really...odd play. cows? spanking? just odd.
then went to Dennys and messed around.

boink.

I left my computer playlist on when i left and it was still going when i came back.
I have lots of music.
 
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10:36pm 31/10/2005
  What the fuck am i doing? Today was shit, and i'm beginning to really hate going to school, and i'm allready falling behind. ugh, i just need something to take my mind off of...all of this.  
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whimsical   
09:23pm 28/10/2005
  The moment when it's just starting to stop raining, and the light shines off everything and I breath in that rain smell, and think that the world is going just fine...

I wish I could breath in moments like that and make them last forever.
 
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it was better than last night.   
11:01pm 12/10/2005
 
mood: hurt
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